Running is something that I do. It’s been a strong part of my life for the past 6+ years, and even though I have had my ups and downs with it, it was part of me. From a beginner to marathon runner – I loathed it and I loved it.
But since I got pregnant, running has been something in the past, something that the old me did. My medals are hidden away under the bed, my shoes only used for walking.
It’s exactly a year since my last race, my last medal. I was just a teeny tiny bit pregnant then, and every part of my being was scared that something might happen by continuing to run. That thought is completely irrational, as for most people it’s completely safe (and recommended) to keep exercising while pregnant – but for me, running wasn’t something I felt comfortable about and so I stopped. I continued at the gym, walking, yoga and swimming (while my body let me) – but running was off my list.
And now, my beautiful healthy bouncy baby is four months old. I want to start running again, and I want running to be a part of the new me.
I’ve got all the excuses as to why I haven’t tried a run yet – but if I am honest – It’s mainly because I am scared shitless.
I have next to zero fitness.I don’t have a “goal” race to train for. My boobs don’t fit a sports bra. My biggest leggings cut into my squishy belly. I can only go out on a weekend, when Jase is home to watch Stella. How does it work with my milk?- I don’t want running to impact on that. I’ve lost my favourite yurbud earphones. I know it’s going to hurt. I’m starting from scratch again and my confidence might take a beating because of it. What about my core? My pelvic floor? I don’t want to damage these weak parts of my body any more than they are now. How do I even know I am physically ok to return to running?
I can only go out and try, one foot in front of another.