*estimating I am 4 or 5 weeks pregnant. I’m basing that off my charts (which I don’t need to share with you, but the Glow app has been very helpful!) and temperatures (I used a basal body thermometer which measures to 2 decimal points).
I’m not entirely sure the news has sunk in, but the symptoms are fo’ real. I have the banging headaches, the extreme full body fatigue, and the small waves of nausea have started. I had my doctor’s appointment on Saturday and went well prepared with a full bladder, so full, in fact, it was a relief when she asked me to provide a sample! She did another dip test, and confirmed that I had indeed passed it with flying colours (I held my breath the entire time). We chatted about diet and what comes next, and she gave me a huge wad of pamphlets to work my way through.
This morning I went for full bloods, and as per usual I nearly fainted. Giving blood is not my strong point! Because my dates are super-funky and no one can quite work out how far along I am, I have a dating scan booked next week. When you present forms that list your LMP (last menstrual period) as 19th Feb, and it’s now mid-May, people kind of give you the side-eye. I was warned by the doctor to try and hold off rushing to the scan, as if it is too early (best timing is after 6weeks) they won’t be able to see anything and then they won’t let me come back for another for 10 days! So I decided to space my appointments out a bit, in the hope that next week is a success and I receive a little look at my tiny sprout, and an EDD (estimated delivery date). I’m a planner, and so knowing a date we are working towards would be great!
I’ve downloaded about 10 different apps and joined two private facebook groups to chat symptoms. It’s so hard when I have so many questions, and yet speaking publicly at this stage isn’t really the “done thing”. I have quite a few friends who are currently pregnant and I really want to be able to say to them “guess what, me too!” and join the club – but we have decided to wait a bit longer. For an oversharer like me, that’s incredibly hard. I understand that there is the possibility of things going south (which is a major fear of mine, and to try and combat it – every time the thought enters my brain I try and push it out and instead tell my little sprout how much we already love it, and send it sticky, healthy and loving vibes). I feel like I have a great big test coming up, and I want to start studying up for it and reading as much as possible, I want to try and know everything there is to know.
The only bummer is that this weekend we are going to the beautiful region of Hawke’s Bay for the marathon weekend. We are planning to run the 10k – and so on Sunday we headed out for a training run. I don’t know how much is physical and how much is mental, but I barely made it 2km. I was so slow, partly due to a few cramps and partly due to the mental picture of a little sprout trying to hang on for dear life and my uterus falling out. My boobs ached from the bounce and it was all just incredibly unpleasant. I am now unsure whether I will run the race – luckily there is a walking option, which I think might be much more realistic given my physical, mental and emotional barriers. I’m also quite gutted because this race ends at a vineyard and I had planned to finish my latest Whole30 (which turned in to about a Whole45 because I wasn’t really feeling all the amazing effects yet…gee, I wonder WHY?). So now I can’t indulge in any of the beautiful delicious wines, and I feel a wee bit ripped off that I didn’t even get to have a last hoorah (and have sushi, and blue cheese!) haha. Ultimately though, it’s a small sacrifice to make really.
I wonder what the next few weeks have in store for me…